Birthday Note: Hallo Melbourne!

Melbourne, 18.07.2019

Yeay! Safely touched down Melbourne on this birthday of mine!

As I have bragged a lot, both in real conversation and social media posts, to live in Melbourne is one my lifetime resolution. And I was so proud of myself for being able to give it as a birthday gift for myself.

Prior to my midnight flight departure, I had chat with my friend Marina. I told her how excited and liberated I was for taking this decision. I was so much ready to redesign my life. I was hot happy during my last one and half year in Perth. I lived in depression, loneliness, ungratefulness. I was the worst version of myself during that period of time. And realising that I only have one more year left to stay in Australia, I decided to move to the city I dreamed of, Melbourne.

The plane landed in Melborne at 6AM. Still a bit jet lag, I tried to manage to claim all my baggage, including The Bluey (my bike) on the box. I texted my Air BnB host to ask whether I could check  in earlier or not (before 2PM). Unfortunately he said the earliest time I could would be around 1AM. So wanted it or not, I got to wait at the airport because it was impossible to stroll around with all my baggages.

I visited the airport cafe to have my breakfast: chicken avocado roll and a cup of latte. I opened my Mac to start writing the Birthday Note I had drafted on my mind since last few days ago. I already gathered some beautiful quotes to be part of it. But then... as always, man plans, GOD RUINS IT.

I got DM from my ex bf,

"Hey Sita, I just thought you should know that I am living in Melbourne now. If you need help with anything please let me know."

DAMN!!!

God, seriously?!?

I was so annoyed. Why should he tell me that?!? Why didn't he tell earlier? or later? At least not today?!? Not on my birthday. I was totally crushed, because he was one of reason I decided to leave Perth.

But well, to be fair, Melbourne was not the right choice for me to move if my main  goal was to move on. In this city I shared sweet moments with him on early of our relationship.

He gave me a lift and pick me up from Coldplay concert I attended at Etihad Stadium. We got fines for parking in wrong spots. We celebrated 2017 NYE party here, with drama before, I gave wrong information about where he should pick me up after I had city strolling and my phone died so I couldn't correct it. Another drama happened after. We couldn't find our van key so its alarm beeping at the time he opened the door to get outside to pee.  Then he decided to pee on the jerry can that we had modified as our shower. Yucks!

Oh God! There are so many other moments that I could clearly recall.

BUT... I have to stop romanticise everything. I should keep moving on. I should remember the promise I've made for myself, the promise to commit in inner peace, growth, self love and gratitude

As @thefemalehustler IG post said:

"Remember, most of your stress comes from the way you respond, not the way life is. Adjust your attitude, and all the extra stress is gone."

So I held my chin up. I sip my coffee. Then I sincerely whispered to myself, "Happy Birthday, Ari! Que sera, sera.What ever will be, will be. Keep living the everlasting journey..."

-ari.sita-